No Alternative

Reality is someting you can not control. Many things happened these days. A friend of mine passed away last month. My very good friend's grandma passed away coulpe days ago. The saddest one, my boyfriend broke up with me recencetly. These are something called Reality. These are something you have no altervatives. I haven't been feeling happy for a long time. Just trying to get by and trying to persuit the happiness. The Daily grind and pressure make me suffocate. All my friend have consulted me for million times. I undertood what they said, but it's not easy for me to let go. Maybe I am too stubborn, always persist with what I want. When am I going to be happy again?